♥ Shahidaaaah's

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Hello. so lets start with what happened in the morning. i signed my form and i told mummy that i dont want to go for the YLDP camp due to some reasons. Such as NOT INTERESTED! so mummy agreed so this morning Mr Sim talked to us and he told us that those who did not attend the camp will not be able to get promoted to SLO or watever laa. So no choice but to go laa and that considered bad news. Next proceeded to class, received all the papers. I have no comment for my result. At the end of the day, waited for Ravina as i have to collect the cookies. So yeah, i'll eat it later and wait for my comments the next day. As soon as i reached home, told grandmama and mummy that i have CCA to attend today. My grandmama gave me a straight NO so i was lazy to continue my sentence so i went to my room and changed clothes. So you see, i'am not trying to make up excuses or what ever i' am telling you the truth. I guess it's time for me to change CCA as no one let me continue hockey. In addition, i' am not feeling well. Fyyzah, remember i lost my voice? I still have headache sometimes and you'll not like it if you have to stand under sun when you had headache. Maybe some will say that they don't mind, yeahh it's your body. As for me, i can't. And i still have family who cares for me. If they say NO that means NO. isn't it? So please understand my situation. I' am not making up excuses. This is the fact, go ahead and ask my mummy if you don't trust me.

and to you: Why must you appear in my life again? Why now? Why must you disturb me again when i have successfully get over you uhh? why not last time? when i struggle after you broke my heart uhh? where did you go at that point of time. Did you spare some thought for me? now that i have finally get over you, you came back and asked for another chance. Don't you ever think that i'll come back to you. I can't deny that i do love you but that doesn't mean i can accept you again. I don't think you are serious. Stop toying with my heart little boy. You are never serious.

Did you guys heard the news about a 15 year old guy who died during his break time. He was having high fever but he attended training. So he fainted during the break time and died on the way to the hospital. And i don't want to die that early. So please spare some thoughts for me. I still have family that i have to take care of.